Hello Beautiful Souls- This is a repost of a blog I wrote awhile ago. I became a grandma 2 weeks ago and felt a tug to share.
Little doses of family togetherness tease my heart and leaves me yearning for more. More time. More adventures. More of this beautiful life. Parenthood and now I suspect Grandparenthood is a series of never-ending, bittersweet, heart-exploding experiences and I am grateful for every single one.
This is Joy
I anticipate your arrival doused in unknown experiences.
My nose rests on top of your newborn head and I breathe in all of you.
You smell like perfect daydreams and wondrous hope.
A new breath, a new beginning, a new life.
Laying like a feather in my heart.
You run in from playing outside. You land clumsily into my lap.
I bury my nose in your sun-kissed skin and I breathe in all of you.
You smell like summer's morning air and pancake syrup
Dependent. Sweet. Innocent.
Laying heavy in my arms. Eyes closed. Dreaming.
The school bus drops you off. You run into my arms.
I bury my nose in your kindergarten smile and I breathe in all of you.
You smell like playground laughter and snack-time peanut butter.
Curious. Gentle. Testing.
Laying tired in my arms. Drifting. Growing.
It’s late. I’m grateful you’re home. Your stature towers over me and my head rests under your chin.
I bury my nose in your teenage adventures and I breathe in all of you.
You smell like nighttime bonfires and old friendships
Bonding. Strong. Here.
Laying heavy on my mind. Confident. Courageous
Your car is packed. The moving van is loaded. I pull you in close and feel your scratchy beard on my cheek.
I bury my nose in your grown-up endeavors and I breathe in all of you.
You smell like adult cologne and heart-felt pride.
Independent. Driven. Leaving.
Laying heavy in my heart. Proud. Scared. Honored.
I anticipate your arrival doused in everything that feels familiar and right.
I bury my nose in all that you are and all that you’ve become. I breathe in all of you.
You smell like familiar, home-spun every day and a cherished gift of love.
Trust. Belief. Here.
Laying in my saturated heart. Filled to the brim. Grateful.
Keep your loved ones close. Tell them how your heart feels. Breathe in all that they are for you. Allow the love to seep into every crevise of your soul.
Be well dear friends