Hello Beautiful Souls-It’s Wednesday evening and I am in the final resting pose at the end of my yoga practice. While I am quietly sending gratitude to my instructor, Julia, for her nurturing soul, her light and her guidance, I receive a beautiful visit and message from spirit, my gang that’s left the physical world and who like to visit me quite often these days. I see my maternal grandmother first and she has plucked a huge yellow ball out of the space above her. It is vibrant and glowing and is as bright as the sun. It flickers as if it’s on fire as she holds it in front of her. She draws it close and as it reaches her chest, she bows her head and kisses it. She holds it out for me to see and as she does this, my mother appears. My grandmother hands the yellow ball to my mother and Mom repeats the gesture, drawing it in close and giving it a kiss. My mother then hands it off to my mother-in-law, who repeats the previous gestures. As the scene pans away, I am able to see an entire row of my relatives and friends. I watch as the yellow ball gets passed to my father-in-law and from him to my grandfathers, my paternal grandmother, then to my uncles, all the way down the line ending with my three gate keepers and finally Rose. (Rose is a secret and she is revealed at the end of my soon-to-be book.) With each kiss and each passing the yellow ball becomes brighter and more magnificent. Rose walks toward me holding the fiery ball. I wait patiently and when Rose is directly in front of me, she places the yellow ball right above my naval, in the solar plexus. As it enters my body it becomes brighter still. As Rose walks away, I hear my grandmother’s voice offering this message, “Never question your self-worth. You are powerful. You are confident. Don’t let anyone or anything dim your brightness. We believe in everything you are. We want you to believe in everything you are.” And in an instant they are gone.

The seven chakras are the centers in our bodies in which energy flows through. Blocked energy in our chakras can often lead to illness so it’s important to understand what each chakra represents and what we can do to keep the energy flowing freely. Here is a quick reference to learn more about chakras:

I do a daily meditation that is designed to open each energy center. I have healed my body through these meditations and it has become a necessary part of my spiritual practice.  When energy centers are open and in balance, emotional, physical and spiritual health is in alignment. Each day this week, Julia taught us about the third chakra, Manipura or the solar plexus chakra. Manipura controls digestion and metabolism. It also represents our source of personal power and governs self-esteem, warrior energy, and the power of transformation. Interesting enough, I had been struggling with some familiar feelings of not good enough.  I have done a lot of work on this particular emotion and I am aware when I am standing face to face with it. I know where it originates and I can feel the imbalance when this old wound is opened up and the chakra becomes blocked. Sometimes I am the fighter, skin-kneed while defending my beliefs, my family and what I feel is right. Other times I question if all the work is worth it. All of the time and effort I’ve spent trying to find my answers, feeling defeated and wanting to retreat. Knowing that’s an easy escape and realizing I am back in the struggle with my mother, in an act of determination and courage I tell her that I don’t need her or her support, only to discover the truth years later, I did need her and I wanted her support, but by then it was too late. We would never reconcile, so each time these nudges, these things happen that make me question my own value, my self-worth, I feel I am defiantly stomping my feet stating that I don’t need support. But that isn’t true, we all need support, it is part of our human connection. And if I am honest, at the depth of my being I know I am surrounded by supportive people in my life. My family consistently encourage and support me and my dreams. My friends lift me up and are my perpetual cheerleaders. So my self-limiting beliefs are not because of what anybody says or doesn’t say to me. All of these beliefs have lived inside of me, in my head for a long time. When I am tired and overwhelmed, they like to visit and try to keep me in a safe place where I don’t have to try new things or challenge myself. My ego is perfectly happy protecting me from potentially getting my heart crushed or my knees a bit skinned-up.

Julia has a nurturing spirit, a welcoming heart and a luminous energy creating an abundant atmosphere for our yoga classes and last Wednesday it just so happened to be the perfect setting to receive an unexpected, much-needed message from spirit. This was not my first visit from spirit in Julia’s studio and I suspect it won’t be the last. I welcome it because each visit is pure support and love. Uplifting messages that sit in my heart and open me up to deepen my connection to the special people in my life. The ones I can no longer hold or touch physically but who continue to walk with me every day and guide me towards my truth.

If you can quiet yourself long enough to allow, allow a connection, to open your experiences to a higher existence, you may just hear and feel a special message. It doesn’t have to be words or visions. It doesn’t have to be equal to my experiences. Make it a practice to bring some peace into your life by limiting outside static, becoming quiet and honoring your spirit by connecting to the unknown and ask. Ask for signs and symbols, ask for answers and direction. And then be open to receive the most incredible gifts in the most unexpected ways. It takes constant vigilance and practice to stay ahead of and in front of our old familiar patterns of thinking. To change our minds and our thinking we need to let go of what no longer serves us and invite new, lovable, joyful patterns of thinking.

Discover or rediscover your dreams, bring them to the forefront of your thoughts and behave as if they’ve already happened for you, be open and unlimited. Then design your future, everything you want and desire in your life down to the most minute detail. Next, believe that everything you’ve dreamt and designed is waiting to be delivered at the perfect moment for you, be patient. Then, be ready to receive and I  guarantee it is not going to look like what you’ve envisioned, it will be cleverly disguised as something else, but you will feel that it is right and perfect in your gut, your manipura, and there is no denying that. Both Julia and my gang invited me back and helped to balance my energy center, to create an open space so I can continue creating. I am grateful for every visit, every message and every experience of this beautiful life. Thank you for reminding me of what it truly important.

Allow quiet. Allow connection. Allow guidance. Allow gratitude


Micki xo

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